If I trust in my own strength for the beautiful fight, I am done in already. I must learn to trust in His strength yet apportion it as my own. Christ in me the hope of glory. Yet this is one of the most difficult things to do. In all honesty, I get lost in this. “Let go, let God” doesn’t seem to work but neither does attempting to willpower my way to victory. I am thinking that this isn’t a continuum between the two, but there exists a third way which I have not truly discovered.

So all I know to do at this point is echo the prayer of Gungor. Mere theological reason, while important, is not of itself sufficient for my victory.